girlconfessions

Hello oh wonderful readers of mine!! It has been a few days since I have blogged, So I will update you on the world of me. Well we just had christmas, and it was ok. I mean you prepare for it for so long ahead of time and it is over in a blink of and eye. Don’t get me wrong, I love christmas, and I love gift giving, christmas music, decorations, and the whole shebang.

Although this year, I had a hard time really enjoying myself. I couldn’t help but feel numb in a sense, it’s hard to describe. I appreciate everything I got, and got everything that I had asked for, but it just wasn’t as fun as I wish it would have been. One reason is my older brother wasn’t able to make it home because his son was born prematurely in November and he was just able to come home from the hospital and they really can’t take him anywhere for awhile because he is so much more prone to illness, and they don’t want to risk the chance of putting him in the hospital again. I don’t blame them for that either, because I want my nephew you live a long healthy life. So it just wasn’t as fun not being able to watch my niece and other nephew open their gifts.

Another reason, I wasn’t as happy this christmas was because yet again, I didn’t have anyone special to share it with. I know, “he” is out there and “he” will come when it is supposed to happen, but I have been single now for two years and my lonliness is really staring to get the better of me. I guess I have my good days and my bad days.

So I am ready for 2008 to end and to start anew in 2009. This will be my year, I can feel it will be much better.